Maximally Entangled Life

People complain how horrible their lives are….there is this lil trick they can do..jus detach themselves from their lives and take a look at it from a distance….seeing ur life objectively gives u one of the best enjoyments ever….the vouyeristic pleasure where nothing is hidden from u gives a kick and the fact that all of ur miserys and failures can be seen in a very very funny way is amazing…..

Some of us (I know the rest are all happy with gfs who worship u) have the bad luck of lacking the ability of proving ourselves worthy for a second date….asking the more successful ones it seems that the trick is to look old , rich and boring…..i cant do neither of that….so here is one of recent incidents for me

THE FINANCIAL PLANNER

Recently one of old friend happened to give me a VIP pass to a reality show set…exciting cos I never get a vip pass and this was the contender with the boxing and stuff. Anywaythe quality of girls over there was amazing in the vip zone with all the MTV vjs and all around and once I thought I was in heaven my mistake.

Two morning before goin there I had convinced myself in the morning that I wouldnt even attempt to hit on anyone and I was at peace.

So this friend of mine whom I have gone with(female with whom I had a history before but i didnt feel anythign for her) had some of her old school friends there too. Now one of them was cute as hell but as I had resolved not to even try I jus didnt do anything for a while. When my friend left to go to the rest room…this girl edges closer and starts up a conversation with me. I was carrying my nikon d80 with me and somehow the camera and phd combo seems to work well.

So she gives me her card “Ruth ……….. Financial Advisor”. I reply ” Im the worst person to be friends with cos I have no money for u to advise me on”.

So the night ends and we all go for dinner together and there is this other girl also there who keeps on talking with me ,…takes my number and never called me yet.

So a week goes by and I sms ruth with a gay joke about myself….well some guy was hitting on me during the show…… and she replys back and there are some sms exchanges and next week she agrees to meet me. But but this seems all nice…..

Day before i meet her…she is like “would i bring all the plans I have to show u and all” and Im not really interested in anything except her so I say no and she is like “its never too late to start”. Now i start totally losing interest……but anyway I go for a movie and all and it seems ohhkkk.

She messages me again for meeting me…I am like wow…”Am i that good” then she messages me like “Financial Planning tonite??”

After that I never even reply to her sms or pick up her call…..I wish financial planning was a code word for something else but it sux when things are so literal……..

Lesson Learnt: never show interest in any financial planner,insurance agents inspite of how nice or cute they are

Its a wednesday….kinda that day i pretend to be busy with frequent “sighs” sitting at my table and actually slack…..thats how I can get time to write this blog……

*Things have been ok…….Ill be brutally honest…..I have to accept the fact that no girl will ever go out with me ever ever ever…..well I have already accepted that fact yesterday morning…so i have spent the last 2 days in zen without feeling terrible about myself….its jus the way it is….some people have a large head…or are bald …or stammer…ill jus be single(its my thing)….so i have accepted it and its peaceeee…………
there were some possiblities in the last few weeks there were some possiblities but i dont think they will matetrialize

*Advanced quantum mechanics is a pain in the ass…i think i have read like 3 chapters at undergrad level jus to understand things again….trying to do that now…its best to sit at spinellis(coffee shop at the university hall) and read it …thats wat i do …partly cos there is this really sweet cute girl at the counter…who always messes up my order(put milk in my black coffee, gave me a cup with liptick on it) and thus i have to go back thre and there is some gigling involved…….also the place is nice …

*Life’s a bitch…..no time for myself…i bought the vcd of the tencious D movie and i dont even have time to watch it…..morning to night im at the lab and then im back home trying to catch up on topics like matlab,qm,laser cooling and ion-solid interactions…i dotn even have time to breathe except that half an hr i get to eat my dinner in front of my laptop….

*im jus gonna write the things i have left to do…so that i can look at my blog and ill eb like …shit…
1) Be good in qm….i need to be
2)do the tutorials on accelrator based materials characterization module(for that i have to read the notes and the book..the problems look easy enuff…something like classical mechanics collision cross section stuff)
3)read stuff on laser cooling…im falling ebhind there are some notes by cohen tanaoudji and there is the metcalf book i need to read….
4)read the stuff on cavitys….i ahve to get my cavity working as a frequency filter…(okk some people are switching off here)

I ahve been very busy last few weeks so didnt even get time to type stuff in the blog(well i did watch 24 every night)…yah we have been working hard in our lab to acheive a magneto optics trap(MOT) and we finally did it(me,max,kyle and murray)……so …

*I joined salsa class….and it seems not very difficult…till the time ur paired witha girl taller than u and u cant really twirl her around(terrible i know…once i joked to the girl if she wants to lead)…but apparently(warnign to the feministS) salsa is a very sexist dance and a girl ahs a role and the guy ahs aparticular role and the guy always calls te shots when to turn and all …all these messages conveyed thru pressure in the hands….well if the girl is too pissed she can puncture the guys foot with her heels(so its not so disbalanced)

*my collegue(another phd student) Kyle from united states…is allegric to nuts…but thru the events of the day…he always manages to swallow a nut…..and then starts the rashes and the groning noises and the feebling swallowing of benadryl in the lab….it has happened twice now alreay…so my lab is always stocked with benadryl…

*so we have been workign on this magneto optic trap which will later be used to create a BEC(bose einstein condensate)..so basically we have this really really absolutely ultra high vaccuumm(10^-11 torrs for those u understand) whre we have some rubidium atoms floating about …..then we have these 6 laser beams arranged along the coordinate axes …so the laser beams slow the atoms and upon application of a special magnetic field(anti helmotz configuration)…the atoms get trapped into this glowing ball size of 1 mm….1 mm contains about 10 million aotms …… so finally after workign on it for 3 mnths we have an amazing stable atom trap…..

*I bought a nikon d80(wohhooo) with 3 kick ass lenses …one general wideangle (18-150mm) i think,one telephoto but the best is the f/1.8 lens which gives these amazing lowfocal depth pic…..im yet to expolre the potential of this camera…but ill be doin good

*classes have started ..taking advanced quantum mech…and accelarator based material characterization….im typing the blog in the materials class….its a saturday ..yah i go to school even on saturday…..

*i ahve been sober for 2 weeks…2 reasons .. i realized i had bene becoming fat cos of the bottles of wine and beer i had been binging and secondly i ran out of money…..soo i decided to drink less ofr sometime ..lose some wieght and then start again….

*i am not daitng anyone now…hehe somehow im am doina real good job of repellig woman…anyway i have 21 yrs ofpractise…sreya wont talk to me anymore….my sex life consists of sites like pichunter and celebritymoviearchives…….its good with lot of variety…haha
(ill remove this entry i think)

*i realize i ahve this amazing ability to survive inspite of my life being jus nothing…..my gf left me….im supposed to be destroyed right…but im surviving…..yah im a lil sad…and she was jus soooo nice…but i try not to think about it at alll…..wat good can come of it….she is not coming back…..ok rest of my life is goin real good …hehe thats why im surviving……my collegues are fun to work with and the constant jocular environment is really uplifting…..

*funny incidents….
my friend went all the way to italy went to a pub and ordered wat he thought was an italian beer…truth is it was san miguel(philipines beer) popular in hong kong…also he said it was a gay bar ..which i dont believe him

my friend who is in offsshore(i donno somehting about oil pipes) had amazing visions about his life after graduation…hehe his exacts words were(Affected by the american sitcoms)…”I thought my life would be liek FRIENDS after i graduate with fun and hangin out but its like PRISON BREAK now cos i have to be at an offshore rig”

*people are in such an obsession for being “Cool”….wat is it all about…specially people i know from calcutta….wats this obsessive compulsive behaviour to hang out,booze,party…..hehe
i mean do that…but dont put it on ur resume like its a big factor…..its like they are in a pursuit of an image of wat they want themselves to be…someone defined cool for them and they are like okk lets follow these guidelines:

1) grow weird beards…..maybe a van dyke or a goateee…..truth is in most countrys their visas are gonna be refused if they go with the beard..

2) hookah obsession…..why for goodness sake….isnt it a lil gay sititng on ur knees sucking on a pipe for an hr…..do it well and u can earn a lot of money in dark alleys…..one person i know(not a friend) had a dillemma choosing between buying ahookah or an Xbox 360…..dumbass

3) drink whiskey and vodka……as if these are the only 2 drinks in the world…..maaan and tequila….tequila is bitter and there is a bit of theatrics when u have to drink it involved but its no way that amazazing…drink the 160 proof russian vodka and ill salut u…..

4)goin to a coffee shop everyday…why …is it for the aircon….. or ur so insecure that u need to be surrounded by equally insecure people jus to feel safe that ur not alone (bohhooo)

*anyway ill be coming up with more photo stuff later….over and out…